What is it like TO NOT HAVE my brothers?

HERE  I   AM

  SNUGGLED

  RIGHT NEXT

TO

MERLIN'S PLACE

WHERE HE LAY

NEXT TO THE

COUCH.

THIS IS WHAT

I DID WHEN THE

FOLKS CAME

HOME

WITHOUT

HIM.

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Hello Friends!

What is it like
to have one leave your life?

To walk through the door
expecting happiness and joy
and instead
silence greets your smile?

People say dogs do not have emotions
like people do,
but
THIS IS NOT TRUE.

I find myself
STILL
LAYING IN MERLIE'S SPOT.
He is newly lost to me,
only a few weeks past.

I find that I
SNUGGLE IN STONEWALL'S PLACE.
Gone this past year and three quarters.
But it feels like yesterday.

IT FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY!

I snuggled up tight
to Papa's left hip
while we sit together
on the rocker
as he watches his shows.

THIS WAS ALWAYS STONEY'S PLACE.

I find that I lay in Stoney's sunbeam
as it moves across the
hardwood floor
as if Stoney himself is saying himself
"Hey Dharma, how are you today?"

I find it
WARMS MY HEART.

IT WARMS MY HEART!

AND
MY OLD BONES.

Here is one of my absolute favorite pictures of            Stoney Wall and Me.

When I go into the sun room
I ALWAYS
AND I MEAN ALWAYS
CHECK OUT THEIR DOG DISHES.
LAYING ON THE FLOOR,
A REMEMBRANCE,
A MEMORIAL
AS IT WERE.

ONE LARGE dog dish,
and ONE SMALL.

EACH WITH
IT'S OWNERS DOG COLLAR
CURLED UP.
THE SMELL OF BROTHERS
AND LEATHER,
NESTLED.

AND I SMILE.
I SMILE.

FOR I ONLY REMEMBER
THE GOOD TIMES NOW.

RUNNING WITH STONEY WALL
IN THE HORSE ARENA.

MERLIN
OLD MAN THAT HE WAS,
WOBBLING DOWN THE ROAD CHASING ME.

EVER HOPEFUL!

EVER HOPEFUL!

I MISS YOU GUYS.
LOVE AND HUGS.

DHARMA DHARMA